by Tom Tomaszewski | Nov 22, 2023 | MONOTONY
MONOTONY / SEEKING
How can you go searching? Caution is not uncertainty. Enthusiasm is not over-confidence. Being yourself in your life involves working out these kinds of differences, Whether or not you like books and regardless of whether you like Charles Dickens his books are one of the greatest sources of awareness I can think of. When it comes to understanding how to go about living. Dickens doesn’t simply write about things, he writes them, from the heart, from the middle of things, not as if he was an unconcerned onlooker, and usually with the welfare of children in mind. If you really want to give that child in you who could never feel secure a sense of something solid to believe in try Dickens. He knew how to go looking. He cared about children.
by Tom Tomaszewski | Oct 12, 2023 | MONOTONY
MONOTONY / SEEKING
Imagine a colour that you like, some music that calms you and a scent that you enjoy. Picture yourself in a room decorated in that colour, with that music playing and that scent in the air. What happens to you if you linger in this place? Now imagine a colour, some music and a scent that aren’t objectionable but which you don’t care for.
When I do this I come up in the first place with a kind of bluey green, Miles Davis playing All Blues and Andy Tauer’s Les Années 25 Bis. Imagining sitting in a room with these three things and nothing else leaves me feeling as if I am coming together. If I let my imagination go I start to daydream of autumn leaves and rooms you’d get in a film by Jean-Pierre Melville.
Then if I turn my mind to things I do not care for, which I won’t mention here, I realise I feel irritated having to be with them. I feel depleted. Some things run us down and take from us, other things build us up and give. Try to keep this in mind when you are around people: are they giving or taking? Neglect is a form of taking, of running you down. It can be very subtle. Life may feel monotonous, depressing, when you are neglected o neglecting yourself in some way.
Make your life more one that gives and you will find enthusiasm for it.
