MONOTONY / SEEKING

Those things we call boundaries are thought-things we imagine like perimeter lines you might see drawn on a map. A certain kind of fence which somebody can inevitably walk through. They circumscribe you and to an extent will always limit you. Theyou who can be defined by boundaries can’t help being less than the you who might imagine doing so. Some things are beyond words, unless you develop a sense of poetry.

Often a sense of listlessness or monotony comes from remaining undefined as a person. You don’t know who you are, so how can you ever feel yourself? Maybe something’s happened that prevents you from connecting up as a ‘you’. Trauma does this: it keeps you away from yourself. Clinically I’d talk about this as dissociation.